Personality disorder causes isolation, solitude and an inability to comfortably coexist with the rest of society.

Anxiety can result in frightening panic attacks, constant worrying over just about anything at all, often with a vio;ent, sick feeling of nausia mixed with fear.

Depression is a crippling illness that can affect anyone, at any time, without warning. At times like these alcohol can be a very easy crutch to lean on, or brick wall to hide behind. It can creep up on you and take over just like the black cloud of sheer peril that it is.

And all this misery and suffering is often caused by stress caused by numerous human situations. Bullying, rudeness, ignorance, constant criticism, name-calling, racism, homophobia and basic all round predudice from pre-judgemental energy vampires. These people are usually as narcissistic as they are shallow - and these creatures of doom who live in a total fear of originality or diversity in any form must be avoided at any cost!

However - they are usually too small to be seen at all!

And THAT is why they do it. FACT!

I decided to make a change in my life in order to defeat and disarm all those who have brought me to within an inch of total insanity!

Those patronising, analysing persons must no longer be allowed to infiltrate my mind. I mean... how dare they? Who are they anyway? With their 'done fuck-all' lives, narrow-minded blind bogotry and vicious innuendos.

Not to mention that frustrating passive aggression that they just love to practice - when their silence screams out so loudly at you. A silent hurricane of mental torture until you burst with sheer frustration - and then, of course, it's all your fault

Don't they just love it?

Power over the most vulnerable and sensitive or talented or clever.

Peace is not in their vocabulary. How they revel in petty vendettas and jealousy. Stay among nice, gebtle, intelligent people who care about, and love, animals and are decent and respectful. Just let the haters rot in the Hell they create.

Remember - "Not everyone likes you, but not everyone matters" - Stevie Ze.

I had hit rock bottom after a lovely career which I adored to eventually realise all this, and what was happening to me. I'd been mentally ravaged. Then my manager, Mike Harris, told me to sit down and write the book, putting everyone in it who had hurt me. To get it all on paper and off my shoulders. So I did - and this was published on Amazon as Rock & Roll Chronicles.

With a huge weight now lifted from me I once again felt free to continue my artistic quests, without persecutions and put-downs from those who delight in causing pain. I had been told I could NEVER write a song, or play a guitar, or anything, by a total BOZO who no longer exists in my life. Just one of many who tried to destroy me!

Now, with two self-penned albums, eighteen videos and a book released on Amazon it all seems so much clearer, and I am at last allowed to be myself.

I still suffer from depressions, anxiety, and personality disorder issues, but without dependence on alcohol, with perfect prescribed medication, and only good, creative people to deal with I feel that it is pehaps my time to shine - and maybe to do whatever I can to help others.

By building an imaginary brick wall around me to keep out the bad, blank, negative ones I am able to continue my artistry without any instilled doubts being placed in my mind by "the frightened gang."

You must always continue your dreams and all that you believe in, despite what you hear from others who belive in nothing at all.

My name change from Steve Roberts to Stevie ZeSuicide is consequently a re-invention of myself. The 'Suicide'is taken from the David Bowie song 'Rock & Roll Suicide' - which I could quite easily have become at my lowest ebb, but how that would have pleased my vile despisers and critics! The 'Ze' is a nod to ZIggy Stardust, also Bowie's inventive creation of a person who probably fell to Earth from another planet. This cemented my deep feelings of being different in a special way, and with those who tried so very hard to destroy me in the past gone forever. So I wrote 'Rock & Roll Chronicles' amidst lots of emotional torment and baggage, painful memories and feelings of failure and alienation.

So, be it music, peotry, art, design & fashion, technology, fitness, your sexuality, your love of animals, your caring for others, or indeed anything you may feel passionate about... BE PROUD OF YOURSELF!

In conclusion...

Our journeys in life are often so hard yet of equally vital importance to each individual. I truly believe that a lifetime spent with dedication, honesty, and respect, is a lifetime well spent.

"Stay strong in your beliefs - they can't hurt me any more - but I touched them!" StevieZe

"Stevie Ze has had more than his fair share of demons but he has come to know them on first name terms, dealt with them, and moved on." Mike Harris